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i need to ask a question to all you other moms..or dads out there. my little boy is now 19 months old. and as of now he has been our only child and yeah we spoil him a little bit. but ever since he was little we always set boundaries and rules of do's and dont's. now my partner and i felt it was very important that we both agreed and were on the same page when it came to what we allow and what we dont and more importantly HOW we discipline him. however our plans must not be working all too well.

well today was the day. i took a pregnancy test this morning. thinking that for sure it had to be positive. i still have not gotten my period have only had spotting and thought for sure it had to have taken. but the test was negative. what a huge dissappointment. oh well guess we'll have to wait until next month.

wow, i am telling you i had zero time to worry about anything but my little man last night. monster was/is so sick. he is getting a couple of his molars in and apparently last night was when they decided to start bothering him. he woke up around 2am and has been up ever since. it just breaks my heart to see him to sad and sick. he is a baby that NEVER got sick. all he wanted was for me to hold him and be close to him. it is the sweetest thing ever...but i cant help but feel totally helpless cuz he is too small to tell me exactly whats wrong. but i think he just feels sick from having a fever.

can comebody please help me to understand how to cop with the WAITING?? it has not even been a full 2 weeks and i just cant take the antisipation. how am i going to repeat this next month if it didnt work? i have all the signs...and still no monthly period. although i still technically have 4 days until i should get it. :sighs: 4 days seems like an eternity to wait. i need to know now. i want this so bad and i wish and i wish....and i just know im pregnant. but at the same time i dont want to set my self up for devistation when the test comes up negative. does anybody have any suggestions?

well, it has been a few days since my last blog. i just felt like i was repeating the same things over and over again. it is almost time for me to be able to take an actual at home pregnancy test to see if i really am pregnant. it has only been a little more than a week since my FIRST insemination and just about a week since my LAST. i have been feeling a bit sick lately ALL the time, and have been feeling like a little crampy and now have been having a little faint spotting even though i shouldnt get my period until next week. i have been super emotional and very sleepy.

well i've waited a couple of days to blog again. i felt like i was driving myself insane. its been almost a week since we had our first insemination. one second im convinced that it had to of worked. i mean we did it 6 times!!!

I believe so much that Tracy is pregnant. I feel it but I don't knnow if it can happen that fast. I just hope it did I don't think I can wait like this I mean. I just wanna be like take a test now but it'll obviously not come up it's way to earily but oh man. I"m just pray every day and rubbing her bellty as if it's alreayd there. I just want it so bad to plan adn to name a baby to hold it again. I can't wait I'm so excited and she's goin back and forth she thinks it she doesn't she don't know it's making me more crazy well thats all for now