My mother is a Black ex-military, Republican Preacher. . .so needless to say my being a lesbian is a HUGE no-no and EVERY conversation that she can squeeze it in to that I am "being deceived by the Devil" and not living the life God intended for me. . .it hurts. . .to no end to know that my own mother, my once best friend thinks that I am ignorant or that I choose to live my life as a lesbian. I have recently started the process of AI and I'm terrified to tell my mother about it. . .when I was in a relationship and I discussed with her that my then partner and I were going to have children together she said "Why would you bring a child into that?" and followed that statement with "I don't know if I could ever accept that child as my grandchild." WOW. Because of my experience with my family and my "church" back home I have shyed away from "Religion" and have become more spiritual. I have come to the realization that My Creator made me exactly how I was to be made and it is my responsibility to live my life the way My Creator was meant for me to live it.

It saddens me to know that the hate and judgement spewed from the pulpit is the reason why we are losing our "family" one by one. . .We all know that this country and its beliefs are rooted "In God We Trust" from George Washington on down. . .and even those that do not subscribe to a religion still accept the belief that different is not okay.

I pray that when My Creator blesses me with a child that s/he will grow into a world that is more tolerant. And if that day does not come, then s/he will have a mother that will instill in her/him that it's okay to be different and it's never okay to hate.

And on another note. . .I too work for Child Protective Services and it breaks my heart to see LGBT youth coming into foster care because their parents do not want them. . .and it is even more disappointing that we can't find a placement because Foster Parents don't want "our" LGBT children. . .or if they do accept them. . .they preach at them and force them to "fit the mold." My heart is so heavy.