waiting

SO here we are, according to DW yesterday was 12 DPO (which I have been incapable of keeping track of this cycle - blessed curse!) So I am forced to assume she is correct, although I don't know WHICH +OPK she is basing that assesment on. We did only have four consecutive test mornings, after all.
I am so impatience right now. She also said that AF (aunt flo) was supposed to visit this AM, which means that she's late - which will only tear us appart if 1) my initial exptimates are correct and AF comes closer to Friday, 2) AF comes this evening, or 3 and possibly most difficult) AF waits past sunday to visit, meaning that she is anywhere from 3-7 days late, hinting at the high possibility of a m/c.

She has decided to not tell her mom until we are hitting close to 12 weeks, as mom m/c'd more than 5 times and losing a grand baby (well, another - because of maternal skankery she can't see the boys right now either) would cause her far too much pain for her unstable status to deal with. So we will tell both grandparents at about three months

I am so freaking out though, because, for one thing, I am sure when it's my turn, I will simply take stock in dollar tree and buy there little Hcg tests to my hearts content, peeing in a cup every five hours if that's what my brain needs. (And right now, I think that's what my brain needs.) And for another thing, she keeps saying she has PMS symptoms. But at first she was saying that she had pg symps when it was way too early. So WTF?!?!?!???

I am so excited about having a baby... I want a Moby, but I am also trying to figure out if it would be cheeper/better to buy or make one. I guess without knowing the measurements, I should at least buy my first.

We also talked about fostering last night.we could do newborn-2 or 3 years old and keep them past that age if req'd, but would have the option of not starting later than that. (I Am not good at preschool+ ages, I can get there, but I don't want to start out with that age.)
But that would be great because we could give them a good dose of AP prectices and security and at least start them out good.

I am good with kids. I am not good at waiting for kids.

Now I am going to get ready to learn how to help abused/neglected kids.