Still with me.. and.. confusion!! (not mine)

So the kiddo is still with me. He was "supposed" to go back home last Saturday, but things didn't pull thru for his bio family. This is why they always told me being a foster parent is full of surprises, right? Even more so than the norm. I didn't even find out until 3 days before he was supposed to go back that it was postponed again. It's kind of frustrating because I had made tentative other plans, but I kept them roughly open just in case, and I'm glad I did. So at the last minute we did a change and went to the amusement park for a day, which was fun for both of us, as well as the friends we went with. It was so much fun in fact that we're considering going again this coming weekend.

So now they are telling me he will be gone the first week of June. Again, it's the same situation, both good and bad if he stays and if he goes, so I won't delve into that too much, and it's not set in stone so I'll just find out eventually.

The thing that is hurting me to see the past few days is that he is really starting to notice something is different about him. He hasn't seen his mom in a few weeks since she is trying to get things set up so he can come home.. but in the meantime, I think he is forgetting her. We sit down and call her every night (when feasible) and lately when I say it's time to call mom, he starts with the "no's." I don't know if this is normal no-phase, there have been a lot of them lately, or directly related to calling mom.

What is really amplifying the above though is that he is starting to ask about mom and dad a lot.. in the way 2 year olds do. A couple days ago while we were checking out at the grocery store, he asked the cashier if she was his mom. She didn't look anything like his mom! Since then, he's asked 3 or 4 other people if they are his mom or dad, and on 1 occasion grandpa.

A lot of my free time lately has been figuring out what to do when he leaves. I have definitely decided that I am going to take a break from foster parenting for a while (after my first kid, HA!), and probably go on a massive road trip, mostly alone. I'm thinking this will be good for me to kinda recover and re-assess things that are going on around me. Plus it sounds like fun. :-) I kinda expect that doing it alone, I'll get bored real quickly, but who knows. I am still excited. :-)

So anyway.. that's my update. Until next time!