Labor Day

It is noon and I just got Bryce down for his nap after feeding the kids lunch. All of the guests have left, the nanny is on the beach "cruising chicks" and Ben is laying on the couch watching Pokemon. The house is quiet with the exception of Copa, (the 10 week old golden retriever barking at the other dogs). We had a beautiful morning at the beach and the air here at the shore though warm smacks of fall. This is my favorite time of the year and the month we spend coming up every weekend is by far my favorite. There are few people, I can let the dogs run on the beach and the leaves begin to turn and reflect on the bays and inlets of the New England shore.

I suppose this is the most romantic time of the year as far as I am concerned, the leaves, pumpkins and the air at night which lends itself to cuddling. I am more at peace in this house away from the rush of home. I think better here, i feel better here and I dream better here. I decided that if offered I will take the new job. That in itself is a big decision, but I need to do it. While it is a leap of faith, I guess I need to do it for me. It is ironic that my horoscope yesterday said I was completing a journey that I began 14 years ago....I am not sure what journey that is but at the moment, with the quiet of the house and the peace in my soul, I am still not sure what that is. I can not find my internal GPS to determine where I am let alone where I should be headed.

I guess, if a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step, I must have taken it 14 years ago, but where the hell am I. I feel as though I am at a personal crossroads and I do not know where to turn. So, I guess I will wait for a signal from the universe. In the interim I rest in the fact that the kids are alright.