TTC

Another negative. This one hit harder than I expected.

We'll be getting some stronger meds next round, hopefully that'll work.

I'm trying to keep positive but it's definitely getting more difficult.

We were inseminated for the fourth round this past weekend and are now in the blissful two week waiting period. Why blissful? No doctor appointments! Woo Hoo! I'm not the type of person to ever go to the doctor so this has been a baptism by fire.

I just spoke with the lady at the sperm bank and the new donor we selected has a history of twins! That's what we want! Are we off our rockers you ask? YES!!!! Absolutely we are! But we want at two or three in total and the thought of not going through this again to accomplish that makes me absolutely giddy!

Well, I got the call this morning. It's another negative. Yuck!

We do have a bright side. We're switching donors. The clinic we go to recommends switching after 3 tries just in case it's a chemical incompatibility. After we'd purchased the "goods" from first choice donor we started having second thoughts. There was another donor we had looked at which we started thinking we'd rather be using. So, that's our positive to receiving the negative today. I'm glad there is one because we can focus on that instead of being completely depressed. We're also going to up the number of samples this round and see if that helps.

Another positive is that there's a good chance I'll be able to go in for my first appointment on Friday instead of over the weekend and that means we can get the heck out of here for a few days! What a treat that will be! I can't wait! We soooo need it. :)

I got my blood taken today, we'll find out the results tomorrow. If we receive good news we're going to be able to go away for the weekend, something we never do just the two of us. If the news is negative, well...we'll still try to go somewhere for at least a day and a half but chances are the first appointment of the next round will most likely fall on either Saturday or Sunday so that kind of throws a wrench into our plans.

On another note, we got a Wii this weekend! Very exciting news indeed. We decided to get one a couple of weeks ago and haven't been able to find one anywhere. I had no idea they were so hard to get your hands on. I guess there just aren't enough being manufactured for stores to order enough to keep their shelves stocked. Finally I got a definite answer from a guy at one store of when they'd be in so I was one of 3 people waiting outside the doors at opening time. Success!!!

So, we of course played the Wii most of the day yesterday and boy did we wake up sore this morning! The sports games are great (even though they scored me with an athletic age of 80!!!!! *sigh* I'll have to work on that)! I also picked up Zelda and Mario Party. Mario Party I got on my sister's recommendation and well...so far, not so great but I'm willing to give it another shot. There seems to be a bunch of different things you can play so I'm going to try to go through it all and see if maybe it's just that we made some poor selections.

Zelda looks pretty good, although by the time we got to that I was so exhausted that I just watched while my partner played.

I went in for my second insemination today and it turns out that two eggs may have been released. YAY! :) What's weird is that one of them wasn't the original hopeful second. It turns out that there was a follicle hiding behind another one! Yesterday they saw a bit of it and thought it was too small but today it was gone so they think it grew and was viable. What great news!

I'm going to try to keep my emotions in check but I'm also finding myself very hopeful.

If it doesn't work out this time we're going to move on to donor choice number 2 just in case that's the problem, the doctors suggest not using the same one more than 3 times.

Two weeks from yesterday I'll go in for my blood test...we'll be keeping our fingers crossed until then!

The first month we had 3 follicles and we were SURE it was going to be successful. Since then I've realized that a lot of people feel the same way the first time they try, regardless of how it's done. Well, needless to say, it didn't work and we were crushed.

Last month, we only had one follicle, and I was pretty sure it was NOT going to work, quite a flip of emotion from the first try but it was definitely less disappointing when it came time to get the phone call saying it was a negative.

So, now we're on round three. I had the first IUI today and will have the second one tomorrow, then we'll be playing the waiting game for two weeks. Unfortunately it looks like, even though we've added additional fertility drugs this time, we may still only have one follicle. The doctor was hoping for 2 but the second one shrunk between yesterday's ultrasound and todays so that's a bummer. We'll know for sure tomorrow if one or two eggs were release but it sounds pretty sure it will only have been one.

I don't know why but I've had it in my head that it was going to work the third time around. I'm not sure I feel as optimistic about it now that we're actually in the middle of the third try, especially with the bummer news about the one follicle, but who knows? Maybe the third time will be the lucky one!